“We all spend our lives alone inside our heart of hearts. However much we share with those we love, we always hold something back.
Sometimes it’s a small thing. Sometimes it’s a big thing, a huge thing. In the late hours, the ones when everyone’s alone, those secrets come knocking.
Some knock hard and some knock soft, but whispering or screeching, they come. No locked door will keep them out; they have the key to us.
We speak to them or plead with them or scream at them and we wish we could tell them to someone, that we could get them off our chest to just one person and feel relief.
We toss in bed or we walk the halls or we get drunk or we get stoned or we howl at the moon. Then the dawn comes and we shush them up and gather them back into our heart of hearts and do our best to carry on with living.
Success at the endeavor depends on the size of the secret and the individual. Not everyone is built for guilt.
Young or old, man or woman, everyone has secrets. This I have learned, this I have experienced, this I know about myself.
- Cody McFadyen, The Darker Side